Thursday, June 26, 2008

Cause for Pause

That phrase came into my head yesterday, and I felt like I was supposed to write something about it. I never did, so now I am making up for it. I was talking to a friend about where I would be in a year, and I felt myself start to sound like I was already disengaging from here. I had to stop myself. I said, "I am not checking out of here yet." I really do have a lot to accomplish before we leave this place, and I plan to enjoy my time here. Tonight at the store I saw a man I had not spoken to in some time. He had either forgotten I lived here or did not realize I had moved back. We talked about my plans and I could sense his genuine excitement about it. He was always friendly in the past, but we must have talked for five or ten minutes, so I knew he was very glad for me. As I go through these days, weeks, and months leading up to leaving, I hope to enjoy each one of these experiences and not seek to blow right past people or opportunities.

So, tomorrow I will go to work, do my duties and endeavor to improve my business despite the fact I will leave it in a year. Sunday I will do something similar, as I will teach a lesson in class for the first time in ages (I was slated to teach last Sunday but traded duties with someone and spoke in church instead). I will make the most of this time, especially with my parents, because the future will be here soon enough, and I must enjoy my place in life as it happens instead of looking at the horizon.

-- Robert


Amber said...

Robert, you hit the nail on the head with this post. I have been thinking about the future a lot lately, while failing to live in the present. It is a terrible habit to have. Goals are great and really important, but LIVING is even more important. I hope that I can heed my own advice and realize that the wait can be quite enjoyable.

Robert said...

Thanks, Amber. I have long been guilty of looking ahead any time some chapter of my life is coming to a close, and I need to learn to look ahead while being in the moment. If you figure out a way to do better with that, let me know, and I'll do the same.

Melissa said...

It's a problem we all have. But as long as you are aware, maybe you have a chance of beating it?

Or not. :)

Suki said...

Thanks :)
I'm trying to do that now(on vacation currently), and every reminder helps me.

What really tunes in with me is the idea of doing ones duty towards oneself and the world, with an attitude of surrender. Really puts things in perspective for me - leisure, work, present, future.. the whole thing.

Robert said...

Well, thanks for the vote of confidence (or lack thereof), Melissa. :) Seriously, though, I know what you mean. I can try, but I'm just as likely as the next guy to surge ahead and forget my plan.

Suki, glad I could remind you. Enjoy the vacation.